You would think after fourteen years chatting I would learn to see the signs or get suckered into something only to find myself screwed again. (I only wish it was the good kind of screwing)

So I don't usually share specifics of things happening in sl or rl especially the specifics when dealing with others. Why do you say?? Simplest honest answer is that I'm not into drama period. I'm not about making things public that don't need to be. However, that said I do feel that venting is healing. So please remember that when further reading. My blog isn't read by many so trying to find some sinister motivation for divulging details really isn't necessary.

So my adventure trying to run a club with others turned out to be a bust. After taking on the responsibility of Full Throttle when it was going to be closed, creating something slightly different, and putting a lot of my time, energy, creativity, and yes a lot of myself into the venture it all got pulled out from under me.

A few days before May tier was due, one of the other owners sent me an im saying they wanted FT to close. Now a lot of reasons were stated, low numbers, staff and members not having as much fun, rl commitments of owners taking over, and not having the linden to put into the tier. My first reaction is ok if the other owners didn't want to be a part of it then I'll downsize the land and keep it going without them. Oh but no that was not something they wanted me to do. They wanted FT to close period, or rather just close for the summer. I didn't understand nor thought this was a good idea. Then of course when someone doesn't get their way the arguments get more personal and rather negative. I was threatened with the staff will all leave - My personality is hard to work with apparently and I'm "abrasive."

This set me off like I couldn't believe. This was told me by someone I called a friend. The person who I helped out to keep FT going when their personal shit hit the fan. I couldn't fought this since technically I was/am still owner of the groups - All the club stuff was in my name......did I?? No. Why? I'm not a drama queen. I'm not the type of person to get personal in a business argument. It really wouldn't be in my best interest to do so. So I let it go.

I am hurt by the way things were handled and I felt blindsided. Everyone who knows me, knows I value honest - blunt - no bs communication. If you felt things were not going well you talk to me. You want out so be it but just let me know. A friendship was seriously damaged in this process. I don't let many people in and when I do, I'm very loyal and will do just about anything and I thought I did. So to have that person throw it in my face like it didn't matter the effort and time I put in, like it was nothing. I don't put up with that sort of thing.

So another friendship online is done.........another venture in sl is done.....

I am still designing clothes for [RDG Street] so go check it out.

out of this a new opportunity was given to me - to manage Time Out Sports Bar.......I've learned my lesson and this will be differently, unfortunately I'm still jaded and closed off.